Thursday, December 17, 2009

Reflection at its Finest

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So I'm up talking to my good friend and fellow Libra/Thinker Mike (Jedi) about life, as usual...

I've came to the conclusion that life is about loving, learning, understanding and lets not forget .. living.

Love is a non-superficial, non-tangible and unexplainable healing emotion that comes from deep within and when all it set aside, its nothing it can not cure. lets not forget to accept something called UNCONDITIONAL LOVE , for all you doubters!

Unconditional, under NO conditions, NO rules apply!

Other things we chase in life, not to sound all preachy and what not, are not as deep as understanding purpose, learning from our mistakes and loving what we have and each other. Too many people, including myself, press for what they do not have and try and reach for what we WANT, that we lose hold of all that we already have.

Think about it, the richest man of gold, diamonds, fame, fortune and all that can be the most miserable if there is no love in his life. by love I do not mean a female/male counterpart, but the genuine feeling we have for those we hold closest to us.

The "poorest" household can see past their lack of riches/material things when they have a household filled with unconditional love and that's no lie!

It's OK to dream and aim for more..
I mean who doesn't want more for their self?!
BUT don't forget what you have.
Cherish those around you who keep you grounded when you're trying to get to where you're trying to go.

It's a beautiful thing when you open you're mind and reflect, just think about life.

Sometimes when we do reflect we think about all the bullshit we did in life and you're like "what was I thinking..?!" and then some of us are like OK and snap out of thinking, but why?? its already said and done, you'd be surprise how much sense life makes when you reflect.

After reading excerpts from "Seat of the Soul" (thanks Mike), which happens to be JayZ fave book, the author defines "TRUST" and some other words that I will post.. but he says the definition of trust is .. an "active partnership with the Universe; knowing that the circumstance you are in is working toward your best and most appropriate end." -Gary Zukav.

That made me feel really at ease about a lot of things! its like, "hey whats done is done and you just have to believe that's a part of your life plan..".

For some people reading this it may seem as if I'm going off the deep end so if your mind isn't open, JUST LOG BACK ON FACEBOOK!

The most mind boggling part about life, TO ME, is if our lives our already pre-destined or does free will make our lives unpredictable?!

I often think of that after I reflect because if I have done something "wrong" or that didn't work out how I felt it "should have" I'm like "ok is this fd up situation for the better?!".. but then I think about people who are born into really UNFORTUNATE situations, it's like they didn't even get to CHOOSE! that's when I just came to the conclusion that life is pre-destined but again, this is just my opinion from what I've gathered from life thus far.

there are so many wonders of the world and I'm 100% I wont figure 99% of them out. Erykah Badu once said "a wise man knows that he knows nothing at all..".. now I'm not saying I'm wise.. but eh! no seriously, wisdom is truly a blessing and I hope to become more level headed so that one day I can acknowledge I have acquired wisdom and knowledge.. there is a difference people!!

I always say the problem with the world is we try to figure everything out, give reason and logic, it used to frustrate me like "why don't people just shut up and accept the fact that they do not know.."! Then I thought, reason, logic, religion, school, all of these things in our everyday lives give us comfort to know SOMETHING and have an explanation. It gives us something to "believe".

I truly believe all things in life can not be explained but I hope one day after we leave our physicals' shell that it will be, because umm I'm curious whats this thing we call "life" all about.

I could go on for days about Philosophy, History, Conspiracy's and much more .. but I don't want to get carpel tunnel..so that's just something for you to REFLECT on...

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

D I A R Y

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OK so I haven't written in 2 weeks or so, I had a drought. I don't know how I managed to not do my daily venting with so much on my brain. I think that I worry about the future too much. I'm not sure if that is a bad thing though. It's weird because I usually just live for the moment but I want so much more for myself I can't help but ponder how I'm going to get there! you know..

They say "failing to plan, is planning to fail.." (one of those old men on the dollar bill) BUT life never goes according to what we "plan" so I've been careless most of my life, well not so much care less but worry-free. Now that I'm getting older and needing to be closer to my dreams, I've come to the conclusion that I must plan SOMETHING so that I'm not like a string of hay in the wind.. carefree but liable to end up anywhere.

But no seriously, sorry to put you all in a position to vent to you..as Drake said, but I need to get on track asap. I know for a fact I'm going to live up to my successes, it's just a matter of getting there, and I've always said that. Not noticing that meant I need to devise a plan of some sort.

So while in the bath tub listening to Lykee Li, I came up with my "life plan".. this will be my resolution, for the new year, to stick to that. Believe me, Thursday, on my day off I am surely putting it on cardboard and in living color as if its an extra credit project for a class I'm failing and tacking it to my wall so I can not push it to the back of my mind or get endlessly side tracked by nonsense. What's funny is I side track myself.. but I have faith in myself .. as long as I have that.. I can't go wrong..